Christmas Day 09

Today,of all the days to get it,i develop a flu ==''

Went to church early in the morning to attend the christmas service and watch the dance/play.Although the sickness was really bad in the morning it died down i the afternoon =)

So yeah,i was there with the gang giving presents to only 2 people (Sorry guys,next year ill try to squeeze y'all in my budget la XD)and wishing the church peeps Merry Christmas.I got candy canes from quite a few people and a Christmas card from Yumey,its really LOL but also nice that she had to go through all the trouble just to make a card for me >< which made me feel very guilty.Lets not forget the present my buddy gave me which included my SUPER LATE Bday prez!

The play was interesting and when it got to the dance part,the guys managed to pull it off very well.Kudos to you guys! Vids are on Facebook~
After that we went for lunch then proceeded to AC for pool and foosball (Spelling?) before i headed home.

God has really blessed me this year,specially with preserverance.Although i may be alone at home now,this morning and afternoon has been a blessed enough day to make this Christmas a memorable one =)

P.S-Pics on Facebook as usual

Reunion with some friends

Yesterday (22nd December) me and my buddy went to Samuels crib to have a party with some old friends from Secondary school.The reunion was sweet enough,im glad i atleast managed to catch-up with some of them.Samuel and Yih Shan cooked up some stuffed chicken which was really good! But there was plenty of left-overs =P

Its great that all is fine with them and atleast not much hasnt changed yet since we last met.I guess its these type of friends that id really like to sit and ponder on the 'what-ifs'.They're really great people and everyone of them has added meaning to my life.

God works in awesome ways and who knows,perhaps in the near future i might become closer friends with anyone of them?Thats certainly the case for one of my friendships.Thanks to Yih Shan and Samuel for the invite.It was great seeing you guys there!

P.S Pictures are on Facebook,like always =D

FBC Youth Camp 2009

Like always,i dont post my pics here,so do check out my Facebook profile for the pics.

Its been 3 years since my last church camp and in-between that time,my journey has taken me from place to place.How God works in our lives is a real living force and how everything turned-out is nothing short of Gods intervention,ive been really blessed.

So yeah,there was a feeling of DeJaVu because we went to Pines Resort,Frasers Hill:The exact same place i had my last church camp at 3 years ago.That time,i guess i was more care-free and less serious about how i managed myself.How things have changed so quickly.

The trip up there took bout 2 1/2 hours and it wasnt so bad,i got a bad headache but that was about it,some of my friends had been really unsettled on the bus ride up because of the winding road =/

The speaker for this camp was pastor Justin Wong,a young dude from the US,it was really cool listening to his sessions and it brought much insight into my spiritual understanding.

We had activities like workshops,Treasure Hunts and Prayers walks,it was all really fun and i learnt alot,especially Prayer Walk,that one had alot of symbolic value to it.

I guess the one thing i learnt most from this camp is that TRUE discipleship will cost us alot in our lives,God has called upon all his children to spread his good news and by doing so,we have to make a sacrifice that we might be unwilling to.

Throughout the year,ive really been challenged by him to let go of some of the things in my life that i hold with such high regard.Its been a real struggle and even now i contemplate how much i have to lose,but my faith has carried me on and eventhough im get hurt and depressed sometimes,a little prayer always does the trick.

Its great that ive finally come to be a part of FBC church,and to top it all off with a camp finale just makes this year mean alot more to me,especially when ive spent it with 2 people who come closest to being my ''childhood'' friends.Thank God la =)

Boring week

Yeap,thats what VBS does to you,after a hype week,you suddenly plunge back into total boredom.Haha

Yknow,ive been through really tough times before,they get me down,depressed and confused sometimes.But i always bounce back.I think the one thing that God has shown me this year very clearly is that he ALWAYS ANSWERS MY PRAYERS.No matter what.

Its better most of the time to just leave tough times in his hands and wait,because solutions wont pop-up instantly.

The solution may not be direct and immediate,sometimes it will take MONTHS for something change,and how God answers your prayers may vary from being subtle to completely direct.

Count your blessings and you'll realize how much a blessed life you already live.Im still learning to do that but i know it works.

Of kids,friends and exhaustion! (VBS09)

Before i start,i just wanna say sorry,because i dont make it a habit to upload my pics on my blog,youre gonna have to check them out on my Facebook profile,but for this case,ill pass you the link to the VBS site,most of the pics are there:

http://www.fbcvbs09.blogspot.com/

If there was one thing that id cherish the most this year,its gotta be the Vacation Bible School (VBS) which i volunteered for.I joined with little expectation of what is to come,but WOW,how surprised i was! It was really fun that i was part of this amazing event which saw me help out in class lessons in the morning and recreation in the afternoon.

Since im kinda having a writers block now,i shall blabber in point form:

1.THE KINDERGARDEN KIDS ARE LIKE SOOOOOOO CUUUUTTTEEE!!! XD Seriously,they were so small and playful with that cute kiddy voice and huge eyes.When they were playing games for recreation,they were always so responsive and playful! Especially during the water games,instead of avoiding wetness,they DELVED in it! XD If i had a voice recorder of their responses to the REC team,it WILL melt your heart!! hahaha~

2.VBS,to some extent is potentially extremely exhausting,maybe i cant blame myself because ive chosen to do double sessions (Morning and afternoon) So imagine staying in church from 7:30 in the morning until 6:30 in the evening,yeah.On the 3rd day of the whole thing,i was practically half-asleep the whole day through which forced me to sleep at 7:45 pm after the days ordeal,thats probably the EARLIEST ive ever slept the whole year!But anyway,the effort was all worth it in the end.

3.DANDENONG RANGERS (The class i was assigned to for morning session) is undoubtedly the BEST class ive ever been a part of (And also the loudest)!!! I was like so super-hyped and supportive of my class la (Cheh wah~)

Im such a horrible assistant teacher because me and the other helpers (Emily,Cindy,Jocelyn and Edward) sort of corrupted the students (Std 5&6) into happy-go-lucky singing bouncing kiddies! =D If you were there,you would notice that our class would be moving around the church compound happily singing loudly to some Sunday School church song or even worse...the SPONGEBOB theme song!! hahaha~

Im really happy for my class la,i could feel we all stuck together and did all the activities as a team,especially during recreation when we competed with the BONDI SURFERS (The other Std5&6 class,Samanthas class XD) and we all cheered and celebrated everytime we won against them,the teamwork was there.And everytime we won,we would sing our ''theme song'' which is basically some Sunday School song we learnt of on the 1st day.If you were there,you wouldve probably heard my class singing it PLENTY of times!

How did we get hooked on it?

Well it all started on the 1st day of VBS when the 1st lessons began,everyone was still geting accustomed to each other and there was an unsettling tension that threatened to make the class a total bore-fest,i could see it,one of my students was branding the whole thing LAME. XD When Cindy sang the song at first,it looked embaressingly like a completely lame attempt to entertain the kids,i could remember the looks on their faces:Full of total sesatness and ''OMG this is so lame''ness.The teachers and i were clapping our hands and singing hopelessly in vain (At that moment),if you were there id forgive you for feeling sorry for us,it was that bad.

Fortunately,with Gods blessing,me and the helpers turned things upside-down.Somehow we broke the ice and the whole class got hooked on the song and from there onwards,we really had fun as a team the whole VBS through. =D

4.The kids love me!! One even tried to hit me ''there'',he succeeded,but dont worry people,ill still be celebrating fathers day! HAHAHA~ I dont get why young boys,like to annoy and hit older ones...

5.The students really opened up after we ''broke the ice''.The best part was,SEVEN of them accepted Christ through VBS,im really glad God has blessed our efforts in it.The big majority of my class are already church-goers.

6.There's a kid in my class also named Joel,its funny how the boys always prefer the ''big'' Joel sitting with them rather than the ''small'' Joel.X)

7.Okay now on to RECREATION in the afternoon session,even then too,ive met new friends and had lotsa fun.The water games were the best,had so much fun bullying friends and students with water guns,but they bullied me badly too =P I was soaked so badly~

The BEST part was on Friday when i TOTALLY SOAKED Sue Mae and blasted my water gun at her!!~ Muahahahah lol.

Other casualties include:Julian,Yumey,Joseph,Zhi Xian,Felicia,Joshua Van Buerle and many more~

8.Its fun to watch kids having fun,cant help but reflect on my own childhood =)

9.The girl dancers in worship session were pretty cute! =X

10.Speaking of dancing,i had trouble remembering the dance routines even on the last day of VBS,tsktsk

I really loved my time in VBS,learnt so much in matter of 5 days,God has truly shown me alot! X) Someday,in the near future,id really wanna just go to places like India,Cambodia or Nepal and just helpout and spread the good news.Hope that day comes!

So now to find things to do to kill off the final days of 2009,there will be some things i want to reflect on till then.Cya friends!

The holiday dillema

Thats the problem with holidays:NOTHING TO DO.

Haha,i honestly envy people who can somehow find things to do.Im tired of just rotting infront of this contraption.Bleh...

Atleast theres VBS next week! =D Its my first,so im hoping to enjoy myself helping out! I always find it great to help the church X)

My conjunctivitis is wearing off...hopefully its gone by tomorrow.

So little to talk about,maybe i should complain about certain stuff? Nah,no mood to.

I could be playing guitar....there are lotsa songs i have yet to master,my music scores are beckoning but i havent mustered the patience to practice!

Or....i could go BUG-CATCHING!! Haih,dunno la,i should go to the forest and perhaps look there.Owh wait,LETS GO TO BUKIT GASING!!! 8D *Hint,hint* LAWL

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I havent been watching TV often *Apart from football*,i barely know whats the latest shows on TV,but i did watch this Hostage documentary on Discovery channel sometime ago,i love this kinda shows,really informative....

Dogs fine,but she's getting older...well i still love her,after all the EBIL things she's done =)

My sister's okay too,her guitar has improved alot since she started teaching herself early this year.She can strum out alot of songs now,but not very skillful with plucking yet.Maybe i should teach her...then again she never asked X)

Mom's on the computer everyday playing FARMVILLE on Facebook.Hooked on it.First thing she'll do in most mornings is turn-on the computer and start FARMVILLE'ing away,haha.

As i type this,im starting to become more melancholic in my mood again =S
Nothing lasts forever,i guess thats the bitter truth.

The habits will change,the routine will change,the people will change,your friends will change,everything changes.

I admit,im one of those people who always struggle with that.So its kinda tough to find the inner-strength to try and carry-on.Some people are better at this than i am,respect you guys.

HOLIDAY IS BORING,but im happy anywayz! =D

Running thoughts

What if I fell and hurt myself,
would you know how to fix me?

What if I went and lost myself,
would you know where to find me?

If I forgot who I am,
Would you please remind me?

Never too weary,but never too certain..

Bug genocide

If your not interested in knowing what ive been up to the past couple of days,then dont read on,because it has ALL TO DO with:thats right,bug catching! Hahahahaha

So yeah,i bought myself this insect net which costs about RM15 for a relatively medium-sized one and i set off to go catch myself some insects for some crummy Bio-project i have to do.

Walked around the tree and shrub-filled areas of my neighbourhood where some of the neighbours were growing their own flowers/vegetables.

To my awe,there were lotsa big-ass bees,dragonflies and of course,butterflies.But catching them wasnt as easy as i thought,them insects fly real fast and it really took alot of patience for me to sneak up to one and catch it with my net.It mustve looked real jakun because people must be wondering what this tall lanky teenage boy is doing catching insects oO

I spent the whole afternoon looking for the chance to catch any of them,fortunately the butterflies are easier to catch than the other two because i guess butterflies are generally slower?

I put all my bugs into this container,how? Wont tell ya =)

My best catch was probably the dragonflies.They zip across the air real fast and it took really good reflexes *ahem* for me to catch them in mid-air.The feeling of hunting them down is really satisfying,the thrill of the hunt~ LOL

And of course,theres the big-ass bees which were probably my most sought after insect because they were BIG.....well not that big,but big.And they gave off a loud BUZZ.These guys were seen spotted around flowers looking for nectar.Catching them was really fun as they really buzzed around you in circles,luckily they dont sting.

Owh,earlier today,i caught alot of butterflies and placed them in my container.Unfortunately,when i placed the big-ass bee in it as well,its wings which tend to BUZZ real-fast sorta shredded the butterflies to pieces =S The gruesomeness of the sight is undescribable,i felt horrible.

Anyway,all my butterflies are dead and ripped into pieces now,i need to catch new ones *If there are any that is* BUG CATCHING IS ACTUALLY FUN! oO

P.S Im gonna post some pics on Facebook soon,go check them out.The problem is,we use a near useless KODAK camera,its totally worthless and it pissed me off countless times because the pics NEVER turn out good.We need to buy a new camera,seriously.

Hmm

Well,a blip's a blip.But the funs not over,theres still alot out there to see.I just hope whatever im looking for,its genuine.Thank God.

Time to BUM around!

Well it IS November 13th,how time flies (again).Do remind me to write a post on a summary of the whole year,there's plenty to type about.

Next week SPM and STPM begins,so id like to take the opportunity now to say GOD BLESS AND ALL THE BEST to all you guys taking the exams.Just want you'all t'know that its just an exam (Im talking about SPM ok,not STPM =P) and that life goes on regardless of the results.Keep a cool head,study and dont EVER forget to pray.I little divine guidance never hurt anyone ;)

So yeah,this coming Friday (20th) gonna plan an outing with some ol'friends to go and watch 2012.To be honest,i dont really believe in the ''End Of The World'' nonsense,but it is fun to imagine though!

Ive got nothin much to type about really,ive mentioned everything i could in the previous post,so i just go about Facebooking,Skyping with a friend,MSNing and checking the Chelsea FC website ;)

Owh yeah,side projects/events:
1.I did mention somewhere before that i managed to get my hands on some Kotaro Oshio music sheets,so ive been practicing a couple of his songs now,cant wait to flaunt my skills! Haha
2.My buddy and i are sorta ''writing'' a song? Titled ''Lil Cherry On My Martini'',its gonna be a jazz piece (As much as we can make it out to be!).
3.Marcus has gotten me addicted on Starcraft again.Now im sorta hooked on it.
4.Since my Samsung is still not repaired,im stuck with an Ipod (The very 1st generation type).I dont really enjoy Apple products user-interface but the clicking sound you get from spinning the circle-thing is cute!
5.CHELSEA ARE ON TOP! Lol,yes as a Chelsea fan,im enjoying how things are going at the moment for my beloved blues.Just hope i dont miss the matches.

DID I MENTION?

This happened a few weeks ago:My dog,this terrier-sized Shih Tzu-ish cuteness........murdered.two.kittens.

No kidding,my mom told me the dogs (Snuggles,the name of my dog) mouth was drenched in blood as she literally mutilated two stray kittens that a stray cat gave-birth to in our house compound.Apparently she treated them like how she would with her toys:Thrashing and throwing them about.Talk about compassion (Which i doubt the dog has) because she just wondered around again like nothing happened.Such an evil evil dog.bleh

The present,and the whats next,,

So yeah,Novermber already and finals will be done with within a week.After that got assignments to do (Mostly Bio,which gives out the most assignements).I think i prefer catching up with studies than rather be tied down to assignments like some of my college friends.Bet they're quite kelam-kabut or something,lol.

Anyway that damn Marcus got me hooked on Starcraft again.

Plus,i have a few programs up in the coming months....

1.Vacation Bible School,VBS (I volunteered myself to help out,in teaching and also recreation,so ill be at church all day long for SEVEN whole days XD)
2.Church camp in Fraser Hill
3.Going to Beijing!! (In January,plus its SNOWING there,lol im so dead,my physique is not meant to withstand cold temperatures)
4.Plus some friend outings and parties? oO

Haha so yeah,by the time you know it,its 2010,and once again,ill have to reflect on life and see how things have gone so far (Which apart from studies,is quite normal)

NEXT YEAR:

NO LIFE
NO television
NO outings
VERY LIMITED computer usage (If it can be helped =P)
VERY LIMITED church involvement (Again if necessary)
TOTAL concentration
TOTAL focus
TOTAL STUDY!
For some of my closer or more often met friends,you can understand why X)
Till next time kids...

P.S Ive got lotsa Kotaro Oshio to share,if any of you appreciate guitar instrumentals,lemme know k?

FANTASY!

I love fingerstyle guitar playing and no other musician can do it as good as Kotaro Oshio.Lately ive been listening alot and drawing alot of influence from this fella.This guitar instrumentalists ''nail attack'' technique has been fine tuned to perfection it makes me gawk over it!

Check out a few of his songs,just plain brilliant:


Someone slap him please..

The 1st song i heard from him.Love it on 1st hearing XD

If you play guitar,you see why i really appreciate his talent.Theres not much of his kind you hear often on the radio,most if it is ''Rock-N-Roll'' pretenders and ''R&B'' crap.And he's 42 now..

I soo wanna learn his techniques! Plus i managed to find some music sheets of a few of his songs after much searching on the net.If you guys are interested i can pass you them if you like =) Kotaro Oshio rocks!!

A reflection on 18 years of life

Yeah...18,no big deal really.Its just that the fact that im now of legal age is in a way abit intimidating to me.Theres a whole lot of responsibilites ill have to shoulder now,more than ever.

So what happened on Oct 6? Well,my phone wasnt spammed too much.Most of it was on Facebook and at school.My form6 friends and i went to Secret Recipe for lunch and that was about it.Quite simple.The most sweetest memory today was a 5 minute++ video my cousin from Japan sent me on Facebook.

Owh gosh,i didnt realize id miss her till i saw her and heard her! Haha its been 3 years now..Miss her now!It was really nice of her just to do that.

Okay now to reflect on 18 years of life.....

Well....

To sum things up,i was honestly never happy with my past.It feels like wasted years to me.Till this day its one of those things that i just want to forget.

I guess that it took me awhile before i could actually ''get on my own two feet'',but im just glad im out of that phase now.

To be really blatant,ive only ever felt like the past 3 years of my life were ever worth remembering and that ive had some really good memories only around then.

Its a funny life,the one i have.Plenty of ups and downs plus alot to think about,but hey,all i know is,it has been a blessed one,in more ways than one.

It may have taken awhile,but things are better now than they were years ago.Im just really thankful for where i am right now,and it is all by the grace of God.

I have a loving family (And relatives),ive been blessed with a true friend and whole bunch of other crazy yet lovable friends plus i can even afford a little luxury.Im WAY better off than most other people out there..for this i am truly thankful.

So yeah,18 years now and the future still has alot to offer,hopefully this will be a new starting point in my life as i strive to improve on it.Its not a perfect life,but it isnt a bad one either.All i know is,its one worth living for.

Thank you to all of you,for being a part of it,especially the ones who have added colour into my already weird and funny life!You guys mean the most to me and i could never be who i am now,if it were not for you guys.God bless~

And now.....back to school tomorrow....==''

Le update

Ooohh im crazy over Kasabian-Underdog.Catchy cool song.Lol

Haha so back to my life update again.

Finally found that damn flower (Read previous post) in SS14,guess i didnt look hard enough.Me,Soo Yee,Ann Nee and Yong Bin went there and managed to find some trees blossoming the beautiful flower....unfortunately the flowers were so high up on the branches that we had to borrow a ladder from a kind (But suspicious) resident nearby.Lol

To make matters worst,i had to stand at the highest step of the ladder just to reach them properly and there were huge red ants tormenting my efforts to pluck to the damn flower.

There was one tree next to this house,but by some streak of unlucky coincidence,the branch with the most flowers was steeping into the compound of the house.No one was at home it seems,as we deployed the ladder and used Yong Bins umbrella (Which was so useful) to pull the branch in our direction.The neighbours may have already been raising an eyebrow or two.haha

So yeah,got the flower and the experiment the day after was great.Hurray!

Apart from that,ive been watching this funny Machinima (Wiki it) comedy short series on Youtube called ''RED VS BLUE''.For those of you who have played the famous 1st-person shooter ''Halo'' for the Xbox would find this series extra funny.

Heres the link for those of you who have time to kill:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORg8kat4uVE

Worth watching!

What hols?

Owh God,ive been rotting my arse off since i came back from Singapore...

So lets see....

I was in Singapore for 2 days since last Sat to attend a prayer session for my grandad.Its been 1 year since he went off already,how time flies.Haha

Anyway,apart from prayers the rest of the Tong family are alright.ALL my cousins have laptops *Sniff*
There isnt really much to do there nowadays,i can remember in the past id so yearn not to go home because the Singaporeans usually have all the fun gadgets and games to play with.Seems i outgrew them eventually,hmm.

Couldnt find the guitar im looking for though,festive season meant that most of the stores were closed *Go figure* So its back to Malaysia to hunt for it.

Apart from that,i have finals looming in the horizon+A CERTAIN DAMN FLOWER WHICH I STIL CANT BLOODY FIND!

Sigh...and i have lotsa time to study,but what am i doing?......lol

The hunt for the Flame of The Forest

Lol it does sound like the title of some 2-bit fantasy story,but the reality is...im still searching for a flower with the mentioned name from the title.Been hunting around Subang in locales such as SS14,SS18 but i havent checked SS17 though....

BIO practicals on Tuesday and time is running out...fortunately,i bought myself the orchids already at a floral store and got the ferns by some trees.Haha

So what have i been up to besides that?

I got TAPTAP Coldplay for the Itouch,its DAMN fun! My current record for Viva La Vida is only 98% though....*Coughgeekcough*...Im in love with LOVERS IN JAPAN,great song.

I missed singing lessons again,Mark has a bad tendency to delay lessons last minute at his whims and fancies =/

Ill be going to Singapore next Saturday,gonna have fun =)

Next week is a school holiday.Hurray.*More boredom in reality*

Church today was good,i really have to do what i learn.Its though.but i have to try.....

I get writers block when i dont need it =S

Nowadays,its like there's only ONE thing i look forward to everyday,and it only happens once a week.lol
I have no will to be interesting right now. ==''

Bukit Gasing Round 2

Unfortunately my friends,i did not bring my camera with me for the trip to Bukit Gasing which saw myself,Chooi Si,Shawn,Yumey,Dylan and Marcus scale the hill during the morning today.So for pics you have to check-out Yumeys blog since she brought a DSLR!! =P

Well compared to the last time out,this time it was surprisingly faster *Considering that Chooi Si was moving faster for some reason* and Yumey didnt die in the journey haha.

With her DSLR the girls *Especially the girls* took lotsa pictures of THEMSELVES alot and us guys too,doing silly stuff,not that im complaining,but i actually found it quite.....X)

Lol so anyway,we went to SS2 *Which i couldnt find if im solo* to eat at Murni's but they had NOTHING but rice! So in our frustration we ended up walking around the area which wasnt so bad cus Chooi Si manage to find some cheap ori Croc shoes for sale in a nearby market *The stall owner patronized our sayings ==""* You didnt buy any shoes did ya Chooi Si? At that point i was DYING for some ice-kacang or perhaps cendol.Thank God Malaysia can come up with this kinda food! Too bad i didnt eat either though =P

So yeah,after all that we ate at some mamak and chilled for awhile before i drove home while Chooi Si and the rest went back to Subang...

Im glad im frequently going to church again,after so long.I took the initiative this year to really dedicate myself to find one cus my family doesnt seem to bother too much =P

The good thing is,ive settled down quickly,made new friends whilst keeping strong the ties i have with some close/good ones,im becoming more frequent in their youth worship team and my walk with God is closer than ever.

Owh and i owe a certain someone a HUGE thank you for this,*Eventhough that person still treats me like crap X)*.If it werent for the invitation to EXCHANGE,i dont think any of this wouldve happened.*I said thank you before but ill say it again*

My only regret is.........not having done this YEARS earlier.Hahaha Well cheers anyway!! =D

Lalallala

Today,i followed my mom and sis to Redbox which just opened in IOI Mall today.(Us Puchong people have virtually nowhere else to go,sad rite?) To my horror,they booked the place for an epic......FOUR HOURS!

So yeah i was there singing....
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and singing

all sorts of songs from Take That to Kate Perry to James Morrison.Had lunch there too,baked cheese herb pasta,yummm and a REALLY fresh orange juice which tasted like heaven!

Haha ive never sang so much for so long in my life before,goodness.But somehow,Joey and i managed to keep going and going and going.Atleast i put some of the stuff i learned in vocal lessons to use! (To some extent la)

After that,we went jalan-jalan and bout tid-bits...haaaaaaah......lol

Another update..

Well,nothing much is happening now,just school as normal,but the Ramadan has mae our lessons shorter:Up to 12:35 noon.

Ill be going for karaoke for 3 hours straight tomorrow with mom and sis.Haha
And next Monday is a holiday.Woot~

How long can i go living with a painful truth?Well the odds are kinda stacked against me in the first place...
Im living,in denial.....bleh....=P

Merdeka..

So yeah,its gonna be 52 years for our country.Not so much of a hype but a chance for renewed optimism to flourish for its people.

By fate i grew up in this country,with its people and all the good and bad that came along with it.

My view is simple:In many ways,our country is better off compared to others.Im thankful for that,although there are loads of problems with this country as well,they arent as bad as what the average citizen of other countries are going through or worse.

Yes there is room for improvement,its the people that try to improve things that make this country better,not those that point out the bad and do nothing.

I hope sincerely,not only for myself,but for everyone,that this country really does move forward.With recession and the H1N1 virus plauging our nation,more than ever we need unity.

Thank God for such an imperfect yet,blessed nation.
*If i could type this in BM and put it on my PA exam paper with more suck-up'ness,id deff score an A XD*

Of what on earth pops out of my mind again...

Went to watch UP yesterday with some church friends.Seems it wasnt as great as i thought.Dont get me wrong it was okay and all,but there are some things bout it that just didnt seem right.So anyway not gonna spoil it for ya,haha

Been watching some movie trailers on Youtube,as you may (Or may not) know,im a HUGE fan of post-apocalyptic type of movies.Eg:28 Days Later,28 Weeks Later,I Am Legend,War Of The Worlds

But although not all of them are THAT good,atleast there are a few up which id wanna watch.Fortunately there are some coming up! Check out the trailers...

2012....



....owh dang,they disabled the embed code =/ Go check out the movies,heres the link

Daybreakers http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W9roxtugaUo

The Road http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hbLgszfXTAY

Zombieland http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=071KqJu7WVo

On another note,i havent been talking much about MUSE lately.It seems my infatuation for them has cooled down after awhile =P Heard their latest single ''Uprising'' which Lucas informed me about all of a sudden.Was kinda........predictable? But it still has that signature queerness that MUSE always has.haha
Their new album THE RESISTANCE will be hitting store shelves next month,not sure if i want to part with my allowance to buy it.*Although some people would fork out cash to buy just about anything they really like.EG:Jeans -Hint-*

Owh yeah,worship practice today was alrite i guess,my drumming skills are kinda rusty since ive been playing the guitar most of the time.Although i can cope with the beat,i gotta hear the song first to really get things going =P

Need i talk about football?....Nevermind,youd (Or maybe youd not?) probably guess what im gonna hope for XD
So anyway Mondays Merdeka Day and i dont feel the slightest bit patriotic (tsk tsk tsk).

Sigh,i wish people would just throw out raw emotion instead of hiding themselves behind masks.Its tough to do that because i guess others may not be in the mood? Hah

What women (The more feminine ones) say...

Obviously not true for the most part,according to some of my female counterparts but what the heck XD...

NINE WORDS WOMEN USE

(1) Fine : This is the word women use to end an argument when they are right and you need to shut up.

(2) Five Minutes : If she is getting dressed, this means a half an hour. Five minutes is only five minutes if you have just been given five more minutes to watch the game before helping around the house.

(3) Nothing : This is the calm before the storm. This means something, and you should be on your toes. Arguments that begin with nothing usually end in fine.

(4) Go Ahead : This is a dare, not permission. Don't Do It!

(5) Loud Sigh : This is actually a word, but is a non-verbal statement often misunderstood by men. A loud sigh means she thinks you are an idiot and wonders why she is wasting her time standing here and arguing with you about nothing. (Refer back to # 3 for the meaning of nothing.)

(6) That's Okay : This is one of the most dangerous statements a women can make to a man. That's okay means she wants to think long and hard before deciding how and when you will pay for your mistake.

(7) Thanks : A woman is thanking you, do not question, or faint. Just say you're welcome. (I want to add in a clause here - This is true, unless she says 'Thanks a lot' - that is PURE sarcasm and she is not thanking you at all. DO NOT say 'you're welcome'. that will bring on a 'whatever').

(8) Whatever : Is a woman's way of saying F- - - YOU!



(9) Don't worry about it, I got it : Another dangerous statement, meaning this is something that a woman has told a man to do several times, but is now doing it herself. This will later result in a man asking 'What's wrong?' For the woman's response refer to # 3.

A week of hols

Well todays Monday,ill be free for a whole week.My biggest fear is probably the fact that all ill ever do is laze around and get nothing done.(Which is 99.9% ALWAYS the case)So ive got some things up for this week,but the problem is i stay in Puchong and transport is always a problem for me =/

1.BBQ at Marcus's place later tonight,apparently the whole FORM 6 posse is going? Well its ALL THE WAY at Kota Kemuning which is at the other side of Malaysia!! Bleh,dads making noise cus he has to send me all the way there...if only i had my own GENUINE transport*Hint*

2.Im in the worship team this Sunday.If theres one thing id always love to do,thats play for worship,its always a fun experience.Too bad i never had the chance to do so for CF back in SMKSU =/ Ah well...

3.My family went to watch UP yesterday (In which i proceeded to crack a lame joke about sequels DOWN,LEFT and RIGHT coming up ==")Some church friends are gonna watch it this Friday,hope i can go.=)

As for what ive been up to lately....

1.Heard of Tommy Emmanuel? Well he's supposedly THE king of finger-style guitar playing.His skills have enthralled people of all ages for many years with enchanting and captivating acoustic guitar instrumentals.So yeah,ive been a fan of him for quite some time,but guess what? Finding his music sheets on the net are extremely tough.The tabs provided in UG are of little to no use.LUckily for me,i hit the jackpot as i stumbled upon a site that provides actual music sheets of all his songs! I went ecstatic when i saw it and proceeded to print everything! Now i can play a number of his songs already =D Lol...

2.Test just finished last week.So what do i think of my very first Form 6 test? Well,im kinda guessing id do ''kinda'' ok for Bio and Chem while id possibly screw my PA (BM is my weakest) because of the essay while MATHS T i know very well that im slaughtered X) Well thats why i have a whole week to revise!!! (Which i apparently wont do)

3.Well as some of you guys should know,ive been raving about how football season is back on weekends.So yeah,im glad to be able to watch my Chelsea play again on TV hah!
Everytime they win,im a happier man(I know its sad,i can hear the echoes of someone saying ''Get A Life!'' in the distance)

So okay Chelsea are now 2nd on the league table tied with Tottenham on points but lacking in goal difference.Man Utd have and Liverpool are already 3 points behind *HAH* and Arsenal have a game in hand.Things are looking good for Chelsea this season,then again its only 3 games in.I just hope they dont screw themselves mid-season like last season where they lost their direction.OO

Haha enough about football...

4.Facebooking is kinda getting boring...

5.I find ''Mama Do'' on the radio extremely annoying,sister keeps singing it

6.Limewire is acting gay,i cant seem to download a song i heard on FIFA 09 (Which seems to be the ONLY videogame im still playing =P)

7.Im getting tired of forgiving people for their wrongs,i dont know when its too much and when's the right time to snap =S

8.Is there such a thing as a ''right'' and ''wrong'' way to start/be in a relationship? On what basis should one start? Im really glad and yet perplexed at how some people have it so much easier compared to others.Its like some dont even try and yet its going their way while for others,they just dwell in heartbreak after trying so hard =/

I read an article on this (Which is surprisingly from my MUET testpaper and another from the internet).Well there is an aesthetic view to this and a Biological one,they both complement each other.

Aesthetic view:The MUET test paper mentioned TIMING.It seems that for some people,its the timing that affects how ready they are for a relationship.So while one person may be wholly ready to give his/her heart to someone else,that other person may not be ready to commit.Its times like these when,according to the MUET paper,it is often best not to make a move,because its not the right time.Dont ask me how to tell when it's the right time,i dont know that =P

Biological view:Hehehehe time to put my BIO to use? lol,so anyway....

The pituary gland in your brain controls the secretion of hormones to the body.This body hormones (Such as dopamine,oxytocin and vasopressin) are excreted out to the body causing increase heartbeat rate,better focus and faster reflexes.This is more so when the person you are attracted to is nearby.

So basically,when your body secretes these hormones (The ones i mentioned) your mind is telling you that he/she is attractive (One way or another eh? hehe) and worth chasing after.The problem arises when the same situation cannot be said of the person you are attracted to.(Hence,the ''Timing'' from the aesthetic view) In his/her body chemistry,the right mix of stimuli isnt enough to cause him/her to develop a huge enough mental reaction to ''like you back'''.Cases like this usually lead to things like depression,heartache and sorrow.Haha

There's this one hormone,i suggest you keep it in mind:SEROTONIN.You know how when you're ''deeply in love'' and nothing else in the world matters but that one special guy/girl and you JUST CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT HER?...or HIM?

Well blame this hormone,its the main hormone for influencing obsessive-compulsive disorder.Believe it.Obviously,the level at which it is secreted affects how deeply affectionate one is towards another.("IF I CANT HAVE YOU,NO ONE CAN!!!!" comes to mind XD)

Owh yeah another thing,i read that the effects of these hormones can last anywhere from a few weeks to even years or decadesIm kinda guessing thats why,sometimes romance ''dies out'' in a relationship? Probably because of the hormones ;)

So the conclusion.....be aware that emotions are dictated LARGELY by hormones especially when they are secreted during the attraction phase of a relationship.So once they die down,be prepared,because its highly like thats when the true basis of the relationship will be tested.

Haha all i know is,this kinda thing,must pandai-pandai la,use logic,look at bigger picture.Im still single so who am i to say these =P

9.Looks like im not sick of SUPREME COMMANDER,im such a geek X)

10.Gotta practice and perfect some of my songs on guitar

So much free time to blog eh? There ya go people!!

Bleh...

Lazy to blog..

Whats on my mind?

Green Day:Running out of ideas

Black Eyed Peas:Running out of ideas

Lady Gaga:Running out of ideas

Latest MUSE album:After hearing their latest single,i fear they too are running out of ideas

Infact,even MOVIES are running out of ideas.Lol and im running out of ideas to type this post.

Tests are fun anxiety boosters =P

Cute puppy

THIS IS SO CUTE,i wish my dog were a puppy again =P Warms the heart.

Sigh...

There's nothing more that gets me down than seeing a friend feeling down as well.Its almost depressing and it affects me too.I may not know what you guys are going through,but know that when your down,id pray for you.It works for me,it can work for you too.God bless you aight =)Dont worry,be happy~

Whoa scary

Imagine the people you once knew doing things youd thought they'll never do.Well people change with time,and its up to ourselves to decide whats best for us,so if the people around you start changing unexpectedly,dont follow suit if its not who you are.People change,for better or for worse,and if you really care,atleast share your thoughts.

Im talking bout clubbing.Not that im close-minded but there are some things id just not like to do X)

Lazy to blog...

Well,ill keep it short and simple,laxy to blog =P

Okay so:

1st FOOTBALL season is BACK! XDD Which means my weekends have football again and im gonna talk more bout it.haha

2nd Studies are fine,just need to catch-up with lessons and we have experiments almost every week now,so thats fun =)

3rd TESTS will be next week,haha and after that a ONE WEEK HOLIDAY!

My head is blank now,so if the post is bland sorry la X)
Lately ive been lazy to even think at all,just cant seem to get that kick.Hmm...So much to talk bout,but im not in the zone =P Some other time la

Yea..

I miss those times,hope i can go back to that,i really treasured it =/ Work can really get you bogged down...

The days go zoom

Owh crap,its Friday again....gosh could still remember telling Pav last Monday how it was a whole new week and like an instant BAM!...the weekends are here again.Lol is it me or does routine life actually make the days go by faster?

And owh goodness,its AUGUST already? =S I still have fresh memories of the things i did in the 1st half of the year which included:

a)Rotting ALOT at home
b)Finishing my driving course
c)Going to work for 2 months
d)Going on outings with Chooi Si and a few other friends/Watching movies

Come to think of it,i even have the memories of new years eve fresh in my mind as well! Owh gosh,time really does fly-by!

And now,ive met the likes of Pav,Jonathan Tan,Sharleen and an old friend in the form of Marcus Foo all in Form 6.The best part,as Pav mentioned so well,its as if we've known each other like forever.Haha

Its the little things like these that really make the year worthwhile,making new friends,yet still going strong with the old friends as well,not to mention the outings,those were good.

Through it all,ive witnessed so many things happened in my friends lives and the joys/troubles they go through just like me,the fact is,we didnt lose touch and that keeps me going,im real glad with everything now,although i may have stumbled abit here and there =P

Ok so anyway,i read this self-help book in MPH today titled "Get from where you are now,to where you want to be" and it really got me boosted again (We're all human,we need that boost time and again) Imagine getting motivated by self-help books....well thats the whole point isnt it? Lol ive decided ONCE AGAIN to tidy up the messed-up parts of my life after reading it.

Hmm a test is gonna be out 2 weeks from now and after that we're gonna have a SHORT HOLIDAY! Must plan some outings with the Form 6 posse and my other friends from the past (Had to put it that way ==") But before that,i have to plan some dumb Merdeka-related event for school,bleh~

Anything else? Owh yeah,i got this injury in Petaling Street last Saturday where the path was overcrowded and there were alot of food stalls,it just so happened that some genius bumped into me from the back and i landed my arm on a HOT stove causing part of my right arm to BURN.The wound looked gruesome,but for some reason,it didnt hurt as much.haha

And i also watched "Land Of The Lost" starring Will Ferrell.Though i loved the actor,the movie wasnt good at all,in fact,after watching it,youd feel like youve wasted your time despite the fact that the show was mildly entertaining at best.Apparently its based on some TV series based back in the 70's (Or was it 80's?) Anywho,watch it only if you have time to kill and it looks like movies are running outta ideas OO

Thats it for this week.So until something BIG happens,till then fellow readers..

The value of optimism and keeping it simple

Seriously,i think im that kinda guy by nature.

Ive realized for quite awhile now that no matter what i do,i cant seem to find myself in complicated or stressful situations.Not that im complaining or anything but somehow life almost always ends up pretty simple for me,(No its not the conclusion from that quiz i took on FB).And when i try to complicate things,i just do so because i get bored of the simpleness XD

Maybe its the way i think or something,ah well,perhaps thats why i seem serious at times? Because i revert into "simple" mode,meaning i dont say much because "all is good".Haha

If i were asked about my "darkest hour" id probably not give any answer because i dont think i had ever let any bad situation over get to me so deep.Is that a good thing?Lol i guess its my uncanny ability to always find pick myself up no matter how bleak the situation.

Call me crazy if you want,but thats me.Dont get me wrong,i can crap bout alot of stuff (Just read my older posts) but deep down,id always LOVE it when things are viewed at with simplicity and optimism =D

Owh yeah,heres poem i composed,not a very good poet though,i just crap my mind out,like alot of other things in life!

A Womans Love
A womans love,
is like the ocean of blue,
deep as it can be,
fluctuating at its surface from time to time,
yet always true to its form.

A womans love,
its when she seeks your warmth,
for only that comforts her.

Its when she holds your hand,
knowing she'd be safe.

Its when she looks into your eyes,
and shows you her soul.

Its when she puts you first,
because you know what she's worth.

Her spirit is lifted high,
and the world around her becomes secondary,
Her heart flusters with passionate fire,
as she tears down her walls...
removes her mask...

And in the end,
she'd let her guard down,
and grant that envious right,
to no other but only one..

Guys,
treasure what you have,do not take it for granted,
because in your hand,
lies a willing heart,
a kind spirit,
and a fireful soul,
A womans love..

Mad over COLDPLAY again..

Lol yes i am!! One day i decided to re-watch their 2003 LIVE concert DVD and it reignited my interest in them once again.Seriously,they're a really talented band with most of their good songs coming from their older albums ''Parachutes" and "Rush of Blood to the Head".Dont get me wrong,Viva La Vida was good an'all but their older songs we're REALLY REALLY good,especially those ''hidden gems",not gonna include their well known songs here cus you guys probably know them already =P.Here they are...

One of my top Coldplay songs.I can TOTALLY relate to the lyrics! XD
Owh this one too!!



"TIME,its on your side,its on you siiiiidddeee" HAHAHA

I dunno,i just go into a bliss listening to these songs.Lyrics are something i can really connect with!haha Gonna listen to more COLDPLAY,the only way to really appreciate them is to listen to the lyrics 8D

Another poem i composed,but i opted for the other one rather than this one =)
EVERYTHINGS NOT LOST
When I counted up my demons
Saw there was one for everything i did
With the good ones on my shoulders
I drove the other ones away

When i thought that it was all over
And everything i did felt wasted
With everybody out to get me
Ill just remember the good days

So when i ever felt neglected
And when i thought that all is lost
I'll be counting up my demons
Knowing that everything's not lost

Phew...

NOW im reliefed! Its like a whole fear i had just evaporated into thin air.Nothing happened after all.
I leave it to God,nontheless.

Poetry Appreciation Night

Some are back in studies,some may be having holidays,but for me,it was a start of a whole new week for me(Once again).Nothing much cept for colloquim we had to stay back and rehearse for Poetry Night this coming Friday (Its some event the Form 6'es have to plan out,with some UM VIP coming).Spent the most of my time chilling with the peeps and flaunting my guitar playing infront of them XD

Unfortunately,we all had to compose a poem each for the nights event,and mine got chosen to be "deklamasikan" infront of everyone.It was awkward because mine was too over-cheesily romantic (Not that i was in anyway eh? =P)Here it goes.(Original version was in Malay,but i expressed it in English,it would sound better if it were in English anyway)XD

MY PROMISE-By yours truly XD

My promise to you,
When the world around you collapses,
and the sky loses its light,
and when your spirit has shattered,
Ill be there.

My promise to you,
In a world full of confusion and pain,
with no one to trust,
and no one who would help,
ill be your shelter.

But that time will come,
when you are ready,
and i would have to let go,
i can never embrace,
because you mean the world to me.

Destiny may have been set,
but my spirit persists,
full of sincerity,
full of hope,
Eventhough so,
I will never forget,my promise to you.

Extremely cheesy right? I dunno,when i started writing,the first thing that came to mind was a romance poem because they are pretty easy to write.(If you have a bible,reading Songs Of Songs would do nicely when writing a romance poem)So yeah,i have to ''express'' this out on Friday.Ugh.

I need inspiration.....for my guitar playing....bleh.

As much as i prefer transparency in everything i do,especially friendships and relationships,its tricky to get others into the mood of talking about what you think,cus I have a feeling im being avoided by someone =/.....or perhaps its my over-worrysome mind putting doubts into my thoughts again.Ugh it ALWAYS does that.I have problems with myself too~

Real skillz

THIS is why,in my opinion,acoustic/classical guitar music is always better than mind-numbing power chords and guitar solos. XD

Connections,connections

The funny thing about Subang ppl is that the network each person has is astonishingly wide.Just last Friday,Yih Shan ajaked me and Pav to come for lunch at Asia Cafe,unfortunately,only i could come,along with Wei Zheng and Jonathan.

There we met up with Chooi Si and Angela Lim as well.Heres the funny part.

Angela is Yih Shans ''seniour'' in A Levels since she started the course 6 months earlier,Pavitras good friend back in secondary school and even funnier was the fact that she was Chooi Si's "best friend" way back in secondary school.This was not to my knowledge as the whole time i only thought the ties were between Pavitra and Yih Shan.

So yeah,i met Angela,who was Pavitras good friend and whom Pavitra now is my ''girlfriend'' who just met Chooi Si during sports day in which Chooi Si was my classmate during Form 4 and 5 and Angela has ties with both of'em and i dont recall a single flash of memory in which Angela was involved during my primary school years.Awkward...

On another note,Jonathan Tan (My classmate in Form 6) knows David who is a friend of Chooi Si's.Networking is fun!!

HAH!

I just found out Will Ferrell is a Chelsea fan.HAH! Warms my heart.I love Chelsea FC,in fact im such a loyal guy XD Bleh~

Stupid apps

Lol,saw an app on Facebook thats pretty childish.Regardless,i hope one stupid app isnt enough to strain ties.If we're sincere and mature enough,petty things like this do little to harm or mess-up relationships between people.Its MUCH bigger than minor little stuff like this. =) Tsktsktsk...Facebook is funny sometimes.

Things i NEED to do

1.Workout (Can feel the STRENGTH but to mus-cles =P)

2.Study (I HATE math!)

3.PRAY more (Need those,no doubt)

=D

Update again!

Okay,so im gonna talk about the Man Utd match i went for yesterday.Took some pics albeit horribly blur ones (Check my Facebook).For a whole lot of obvious reasons,i was abit (but not very) pumped up about the match because atleast i got to see superstar footballers =P

So anyway,i went with Josman,Wei Zheng,Ji Soon and Keenan to the stadium which apparently wasnt as packed as it was on Saturday.Regardless,the stadium was red with the colours of Man Utd.In normal situations,i would be utterly revolted by what im seeing,but the hype of seeing superstar footballers was enough for me to overlook the situation.

Malaysians didnt play so well this time round,letting in 2 goals in the span of 3 minutes.Haha and the Malaysian players were SO SMALL in comparison to those European players.Federico Macheda,17 years old,hotter,fitter,TALLER than me X( The Malaysian players had trouble tackling those huge men! We Asians need to come up with some growth serum to grow bigger! Then again,its probably our HEALTHIER diet that keeps us smaller =P

Besides that,i actually came within METRES of seeing Michael Owen,Rooney and Co.It was heart-stopping despite the fact that they're Man Utd players.Too bad i didnt manage to take any pics......security was on to me =/

This morning i woke up,with a TONNE of weight in my head (DEAD sleepy) I ALMOST ALWAYS fall asleep in class nowadays!! *Reminiscent of my friend who ALWAYS sleeps in Bio lessons last year eh? =P*

In school i had to do this stupid tedious Chromatography experiment which was a TOTAL pain in the ass because just trying to get the leaf extract to form a perfect dot on the paper is nigh heart-breaking!!Anyway,it really spoilt my mood and all i really wanted to do was just go home.

I have this funny tendency to show my more so-called ''mature'' side to people when i first meet them,but im actually MUCH MUCH MUCH worse than that XD Just ask Pavitra and some of my classmates.I naturally dumb-down till i even make a fool out of myself sometimes especially when i once open up HAH!Nothing to blog about leh =S

Doing something awkard

I cant believe im going to see Man Utd,possibly the most pathetic club in the world.....today!! Apparently those Indonesian locals did a favour to their country by bombing the hotel in which Man Utd were suppose to stay in (Should have done it a day later XD) so those Red Devils are having a 2nd match here.

Will tell you guys more bout it once i went for it.
Last minute stuff.Hope i dont get ripped off.Deep down,my heart will always remain LOYAL to TRUE BLUE CHELSEA FC! =)

Update..

Well,i cant really talk bout much.Todays youth service message was okay.I wish i had cash to invest in Warhammer 40k (Some geeky uber expensive boardgame) and i have to plan that stupid ''Bulan Merdeka'' thingy XD When life is THIS simple (trust me,the only things complicating in my life now are my thoughts and Form 6 math) you just wanna add problems into it just to make it more interesting.

Now with music!

Not that im new to this (Im not =P),but i managed to get one of those song players for my blog! Feel free to check out the songs i love listening to.Dont worry,its all ear-friendly,no screaming or electric guitar distortion involved =)

Nothing to whine about =P

Well yeah,what do you expect? Im in school so the only thing i can blog about is school.

Its normal.

Students are fine,teachers are fine,work is fine.All is fine =) In fact its so fine i cant even see it! *lame joke*

Lol anyway,i realized my BEST FRIEND (Samsung YP-T9 mp4 player) now holds less and less rock songs.Got sick of rock like a few years back,got bored of it.Nowadays i look for variety,but i avoid what i usually hear on the radio and search for the ''goodstuff''.Haha

I just found out it was DESIREE who sang ''You Gotta Be''.Its one of those songs i really loved but just couldnt seem to catch the name at the last moment.And now i finally found it! hah!

Im blabbering bout this cus it turns out my friend just got ARES (I tried using it before,but it was gay) and is now seemingly staging an exodus of songs into her laptop.LOL

Music is good,especially if you search well and appreciate the depth.Im into instrumentals (Mostly guitar),if your interested,just nudge me or spam my cbox XD Id REALLY like to share my songs on the blog but i dont know how.Any ideas my beloved sexy readers? You know your hot cus im hot too *Winks*

Cute furry prehistoric mammals!!

My comparisons between two movies i watched one day after the other:Ice Age 3 and Transformers 2.

If you my dear reader,have not watched either of these 2,then id suggest,for a whole lot of reasons that you go watch.......ICE AGE 3! Nope my dear reader,its not a typo error.You read that right! Im actually suggesting you go watch furry mammoths and dumb sloths rather than big-ass robots rape the hell out of each other (And Megan Fox).

But why? How could the most anticipated block-buster of the year 2009,in my opinion,lose out to a seemingly modest sequel which didnt seem to excite the general public as much? How is it that the combined forces of Optimus Prime,Megatron,Bumblebee,and a whole host of giant robotic humanoids (Not to mention Megan Fox) lose out,in my opinion,to a bunch of cutesy prehistoric vertebrates?!

To the uninformed,Transformers 2 when first seen in trailers got the hormones of males (Megan Fox) and maybe a handful of females raging,as it was widely deemed the movie of the year to watch.

Sadly,my beloved reader,if you havent watched it yet,you are one of the rare few that has spared yourself 2.5 hours of your precious time,because,sadly to say,Transformers 2 was one of the BIGGEST disappointments in a movie i have watched in my 18 years on this planet.Apparently Michael Bay was playing safe,perhaps too safe or too predictable.After the monster success of the first movie (Which wasnt as bad as this one) i guess the title itself automatically meant a monster snowball of cash considering that people were in it JUST for the action (And Megan Fox).It couldve been a masterpiece,they shouldve kicked out Michael Bay (Not Megan Fox)and replaced him with a director who couldve placed in some DEPTH into the movie,heck,in fact,a whole lot of depth would have been very nice.Bleh~

Regardless,the movie was THAT shallow and the robots were more or less the whole reason to watch the movie (And Megan Fox).

ICE AGE 3 on the other hand,wasnt exactly the masterpiece either,but it had a clear straight-forward,non-nonsensical storyline and atleast a much better character development compared to their robotic counterparts.But the cream of this movie my friends,lies in the COMEDY,which to say the least,is nothing short of slap-on-the-lap funny.Even the subplot of the movie (Scrat the prehistoric squirrel chasing the acorn) was a much entertaining complement to the movie compared to *Cough*Megan Fox*Cough*

I mean seriously,the animation was good enough,and the characters were really cute!! The jokes were what got this movie standing on its feet.They were extremely lame and some were even smart but nontheless hilarious.If i had to watch a movie twice,id go for this one.*Hint*

So yeah,ICE AGE 3 atleast got the audience to laugh whereas Transformers 2 tries to stuff a barrel full of action into your head.Go watch Ice Age 3,do yourself a favour =)

On another note,i believe everyone deserves a chance,and that includes myself.Its unfair to block off someone when you havent seen him/her express herself the best way he/she can.People often dont try hard as much because they werent given the chance,sometimes it takes reaffirmation to truly open them up.Everyone deserves a chance..

The Truth

Ive always been sincere in my actions,whatever i thought and felt,grew from this.So it came naturally as time passed on,no doubt about it.

Nothing has changed,in fact,it couldnt be better.The only difference now is that she knows.It wont ever break,this i promise.Its bigger than how i feel but i wont deny it.

Regardless,my logic knows i dont need this now,it's genuine,so it'll last.I have bigger things to worry about..

Speaking my mind (Part III)

JENGJENGJENG! For the 1st time in my blog,my guitar will do the talking!hahha This crappy/unstructured song was composed in less than 10 minutes.I tried to express how i felt into the song the best way i could.Hope you guys like it =D

Yawn....

Nowadays i go to school ALMOST ALWAYS nodding off during lessons.Crap~

I have HORRIBLE stamina.I gotta work-out more,but i somehow just opt to laze around and serenade myself with melodies that pop-out of my head on my guitar.lol

Feel like a pampered little princess with little to no obligations (Accept homework).Life is so simple right now!
Things are really good at the moment.I thank God for everything =)

Lock-In 09

Okay,so for the uninformed,Lock-In is a one night church sleepover that i took part in on the 4th of July (Lol US Independence).I did take some pics,but i posted them on my Facebook.Feel free to check them out. =)

Anywho,i brought a whole backpack which i somehow overstuffed with my things (I have a tendency to over prepare stuff for trips),i straw mat and of course,my bed pillow (Which i drool on) XD

Coming around 6:20 p:m,i was surprised that most of the supposed attendees werent even there yet (Typical Malaysian).I met up with Chooi Si,Sue Mae,Julian and the rest as we prepared for a play which we were gonna act out (I was the bodyguard,very last minute stuff,i wasnt even part of the murder game)

The night was fun,had dinner then worship then we started off with the ice-breakers before the murder game started.The whole ordeal lasted up to 12:30.It was really fun,lazy to describe =P

We spent the following hours in one of the rooms sitting around a table and the guys (Including myself *winks*) taking turns to play the guitar and SINGING OUR HEARTS OUT! Haha,it was really good fun,played all sorts of contemporary songs.Hehe

But time flied like a rocket and it was time to go to sleep....the experience was not very good =/ If there's one thing im fussy about,its where im sleeping.Sadly all i brought was a straw mat and my pillow but no blanket.Some people are freaky being able to sleep in COLD air-cond plus STRONG fans,ugh.Sorry i have no fats,so i cant insulate myself very well.Only slept for 3 hours++

The Sunday morning didnt involve much apart from the group chilling in one of the rooms,and the murder game being concluded (Chooi Sis character was the murderer,judging by the way she looked,she liked her role eh?)

So that concludes the Lock-In for 2009,im hoping there will be an 2010 too,it wasnt grand,but i enjoyed myself nontheless ^^

Apart from that,i followed John Yen to some hobby store near Atria (A food court) to delve in the wonders of Warhammer 40k (A friggin expensive boardgame).Took lotsa pics which i posted on Facebook too.Im not really a fanatic of the game,but i just went to check it out for the fun of it,those figurines are total eye-candy!

Thats all for now dear readers,this week is gonna see me involved in MORE things than ever.(Form 6 Council meeting/gonna meet up with a potential contender on Tues,Friday is Ice-Age 3? and Saturday is Transformers 2/C.F Rally concert!) Take care~

Going the wrong direction..==''

Owh crap,have i met a dead-end?

This is bad,really bad.Maybe i was too laid-back or something,dont wanna completely lose the possibility.I dont get it,i just TURN-OFF or something,im usually not like this,especially with my Form 6 friends,with them i feel the ENERGY,the POW-AH,the Syok-Sendiriness XD.Dont get me wrong,im still myself my dear readers,somehow i just go into ''OFF'' mode.*Ask Pav,she should know*
For now,things are really cool,but in the coming months and years,i MUST try harder.I know its worth it. =) Ah well,in the end,i have nothing to lose anyway,hahaha

Besides that im planning to watch TRANSFORMERS 2 on 11th JULY!! Still inviting people.COME COME!

So...

So i spent the 1st 3 hours of school today literally resting my sore butt on the tar floor as i watched some veteran teacher retire for good.It must feel nice cus then all you can do is devote time to your family =) But heck,anyway thats a LONG LONG LONG LONG way for me,hopefully ill still be using this blog in 2050? (Provided i LIVE that long)

On Monday,Sharleen,Pav and I were involved in this nice decent conversation about PORNO.Haha,you read that right guys,and it was completely out of the blue.The worst part was,they went deep,ohoho yes they did.I was mentally jaw-dropped when i heard what both of them were talking about,delving into the details of porno XD Owh God,it freaked me out and i was reeling from all the ''belows'' and the ''high-corners'' and the ''suckyness''.Dammit,i can be brutal,but for once,i actually had to cope with you guys! Goodness me i should adapt then *winks* Dont worry folks,THEY did most of the talking,i swear! Ive never met such ''colourful'' people thus far.HAhaaha Naughty naughty eh~

*COUGH*Ahem*COUGH*

Hmm lately,the weather has been gettin HAWT-ah and more HUMID-ah,must be the yearly season thingy (And im a science student,gosh).Cant stand it,i so want to take a COLD-SHOWER or perhaps cannonball into a nice cold pool and have all my body heat disperse into the water.Hehe~

Holy-Aunt-Annes-Freshly-Baked-CHOCOLATE-CHIP-COOKIES!!!!! Its JULY already? Owh my goodness! Time flies like..ummm...*Place suitable metaphor here*.

Thinking about it scares me,the future INDEED does look like its coming too fast.I still feel the SU-ness inside me,carrying my bag and walking the corridors from class to class with the 5 SIGMA entourage,staying back for CF every Friday,begging our parents for transport to some outing when we couldnt drive yet.....GOSH,that was JUST LAST YEAR.And to think i still remember my last day of SPM last year plus all the 5 months of waiting for Form 6 to start could all just FLY-BY like that! Whoa dude,total bummer man...

Not to mention everything that happened in between that time-span.The outings,the work,the conversations,the reunions,the keeping-in-touch,the church services,the so-called study,the work...(Wait i said that already) and umm...the PEOPLE.Owh wow,especially the people!

Its like a whole bus load of them left and another bus load of them came.Since,December 2008 many people ive known in Secondary school have i all but keep-in-touch with.Funny lar,im well aware that everyone has ALREADY gone their separate ways,making new starts.I guess it wasnt so hard for me to come to terms with that because i knew i wasnt leaving school without my own group of good friends.

Ugh,its July,by the time you know it,everyone will be going to varsities and the cycle will restart itself.Then when we finish our degrees,we go into the working world and AGAIN,the cycle will restart.(I very well know this but im just typing it out for the fun of it,the keyboard sound is quite nice to listen to!!) Ive embraced this fact many years ago already.hehe~

Lol,its a blessing to know that there are people that will stay through it all =)

Ugh I HATE MATHS T!! I dunno whether i should brag or moan,but im taking possibly the TOUGHEST maths syllabus in the country! Am I? And my NEAREST holiday is in August!!
AUGUST people! Do you know how far that is away?! XD

Im seriously VERY tempted to buy Transformers 2 and watch at home,really,i dunno who to watch with,most of my Form 6 friends arent free =( Sue Mae's busy and Chooi Si already
watched it,Pav's busy this weekend.

P.S:To my readers,go to Ann Nees blog (Link is in the lower right-side of this page) and read what she typed,Ann Nee,you have my FULL support! Alrite! *NOT Ching Ann Ee,Im referring to the one in Form 6,the former is taking SAM in Taylors*

Patience bears its fruits

The weekend is over and i face another horrendous week of school,ugh.But hey,id rather be like this than not have anything to do at all,as some of my beloved readers should know by now.

I realized SMK SS17 has a knack for doing everything very last minute,and hence,Sports Day was on a Saturday all of a sudden.

As usual the majority of my class didnt show much punctuality so our numbers were few.Fortunately,my persistence paid off when i managed to get Pav to come teman me and some of my classmates also came,so it wasnt so bad.I was glad also that Chooi Si managed to come,despite saying she couldnt the day before,so i brought her round (Well,almost round) the school to show her how my Form 6 life was turning out,instead she ended up helping me and the Form 6 council stall sell flags to the *almost unresponsive* crowd which consequently made us hot and sticky plus almost rugi RM10 XD Hope you had fun Chooi Si despite sweating n getting sticky ^^
It was fun,next year will be better!

But this post is more about a message i heard in church today (Sunday):

The speaker (Whose name i sorely dont know of) spoke of Patience.I realized once again,that God is speaking to me through this speech,because it clearly coincides with something i prayed for the day before.

Patience is struggling with the truth and long-suffering.Like the speaker mentioned,sometimes when things are blurry and we aren't sure of what we want,we'd have the tendency to rush things by ''flipping a coin'' and therefore,make a quick hasty descision.

Imagine loving someone with all your heart and doing what you can to make him/her happy,but that person doesnt truly appreciate or even acknowledges this love.

Its a perfect example of what God is going through for us,he waits and loves patiently until we realize that he has always been there for us.He chose to be patient,so that the fruits of his efforts will in time,grow.

Ive already had a good perception of what patience is,but this message i heard in church brought the whole idea to a higher level for me.I realized that patience,when it is not forced-out but rather that it comes through sincerity of the heart,you wont feel burdened or confused from being so.You'll learn to take things as they come and at the same time,allow room for your efforts to truly show and grow.

Long story short,true patience comes willingly from the heart and its nothing to be confused about.Dont worry about the time-span,be patient with the things you treasure and in time,what you worked on will grow.Im starting to see that for myself =)
*Hope my readers get what im saying*

Speaking my mind (Part II)

I think im starting to realize,that this year has really got the best out of me,and i honestly truly feel that im more open to my Form 6 friends,than to almost everyone i know in secondary school.

Time changes people,and what we once used to enjoy,will become a thing of the past.To me,letting go of someone (or anyone special for that matter) is the most depressing thing you can do to yourself.I never ever want that to happen to me because once youve learnt to treasure something/someone and everything that you've been through with,youd fight to keep it that way or even improve it.I guess i work that way.

Id like to think of the relationships i have with everyone i know as a flame,that burns with varying brightness,some are SURGING fires,while others are just a mere spark...or a wisp of air at the very least.

After awhile,i found out that it's naturally my character that made me this way,i HAVE to relate with people at a deeper level,or else i dont see what the basis our relationship is.

Thats me,i dont let go (or i RARELY) of what ive already started,and if i can brighten the flame,i would and i will,because thats what i value in life,building on something and getting the most out of it.Besides,isnt that what makes the journey of life all the more beautiful? =)

The music in my life

So lately,schools been bogging me down and i got alot on my mind,in order to chill id usually have a nice good convo with anyone of my friends or,of course,listen to some good music.

For this post,im gonna be abit more light-hearted and share with you guys the songs i listen to that make me smile and loosen up.They say music is a great remedy for destressing,i say its the PERFECT remedy! XD

I really relate with the songs i like because they touch me in a way that is almost inspiring and uplifting,i dunno bout you guys,but i get it from the songs i listen to.Its a sort of ''musical infatuation'' for a certain song which will (Or might not) subside sooner or later and the spirit just relaxes,the mind loosens and your senses become milder.*Lol Shu Lyn,i still listen to some of the songs you sent me,another exchange session sometime?*

Songs that brightens my mood:
Nickelback-Someday (Setting things right,someday somehow,love it)/Savin Me (Nice lyrics)

Andy Mckee-Drifting (Guitar instrumental,love the technical value of the song)

Annett Louisan-Das Gehul/Die Sein/Der Schone (Its German,but heck,she's one lovely singer)

Coldplay-The Scientist (Love the lyrics,even now)/Shiver (Guy likes girl,but girl doesnt like guy lyrics,heh)

Shania Twain-From This Moment On (Great love song,My 2nd most fave song at the moment)/Youre Still The One (Likewise)

Corrine Bailey Rae-Like A Star (One of my first Jazz songs,still love it after so long)

Diana Krall-The Look Of Love (Lovely jazz romance song)/Cry Me A River (Its a cover but i like her version)

Evanescence-Lithium (The only song by them which i think is good,love the song meaning)

Kotaro Oshio-Splash (Guitar instrumental,but its a joy just to listen to)

Linkin Park-Somewhere I Belong (The only song i like from them,brings back memories from primary school *When it 1st came out*)

MUSE-If i were to list them here,it would be possibly be much longer than this post,some other time XD

Norah Jones-The Nearness Of You (I can imagine having a romantic moment with my future wife while playing this song,lovely lyrics)

Civil Twilight-Letters From The Sky (Yes Shu Lyn,you got me hooked on this song too,thanks!The ambience of the song is engaging)

Take That-Greatest Day (My MOST favourite song at the moment,give it a listen!)

Jamie Cullum-I Get A Kick Out Of You (Nice jazz song)

Avril Lavigne-Nobody's Home (The only GOOD song to come from her,i like the song meaning)/Im With You (Love this one too ^^)

No Doubt-Dont Speak (About failed friendship?,the classical guitar solo is great too)

AaRON-U-Turn (A French duet,but the songs in English,the song aura is gripping)

The Yeah Yeah Yeahs-Gold Lion (Simple yet,very addicting,one of my more ''playful'' songs)

Clazziquai-Hold Your Tears (The english version is beautiful,so suave and it makes me float)

Colby Caillat-Realize (A simple song,yet the lyrics are great)

Antoine Dufour-Reality (Guitar Instrumental,youd really appreciate this song if you played the guitar)

Snow Patrol-Make This Go On Forever (My ''emo'' song,hah)/Run (Never got sick of it until now,may be abit boring to some)

U2-Elevation (Cool song by Bono and co,nice lyrics)

Well so there you go,usually i love the songs i listen to simply because it fits a certain mood i am in at any given time.So i got a song to complement every mood i have.haha

Give the songs a listen and hopefully youd like them as much as i do.Happy Listening!

*P.S message me if you want me to send some to you*

The calm before the..screw that,the storms already here!

Ok,anyway,the full fury of Form 6 is starting to slowly drown me in its waves.

The practicals are starting to appear....the homework is increasing....the assignments are piling....and exam's in 2 months time. O.O

So while SOME OF US are happily shopping away in Pyramid or going on frequent outings with friends,the rest of us here in Form 6 are starting to (Or already are) feel the heat.Lol but of course,this is 100X better than lying around at home rotting away with nothing to do,seriously,i couldnt have imagined holidays to ever be a bad thing,but now i know how horrible it is.

Be thankful college students,your hols only last a few weeks or a couple of months.I had to go through almost SIX MONTHS of boredom.(I did take up a job,but still..) Enjoy it while you can =)

Ok so my school had this,''Bulan Merdeka'' thing that was assigned to the Science 1 and Science 2 classes to handle,and im like,ugh,totally lost.Gotta start getting people moving and doing stuff~

Organizing isnt one of my weaknesses but the thoughest part is communication and non-punctuality,especially if it comes from a big group.Im sure JEFFREY will help out.*Nudge,Nudge*

Ive always hoped that someway,somehow,id want to change peoples perception of Form 6 as being a ''bad'' thing.Its time we (Form 6 people) do our best to make it the time of our lives.Tired of it.

It irritates me,even to this day,that ive come across ALOT of people who tell me off about going to Form 6 and suggesting that i go to college.Some even look surprised that i even AM in Form 6 *A big WTF moment,ugh*

Just to let you know,my dear (possibly uninformed/misguided) reader,i COULD'VE gone to college.I chose not to.And looking at how things are,i dont think id EVER regret that descision.So dont EVER tell me Form 6 is a waste of my time..atleast my parents money isnt a concern.

*Sorry bout that,but ive seen some of my Form 6 friends get this kind of crap from other people,so im speaking up for them too*^^

Hmm,anyway i gotta start planning the things and get the board busy for Bulan Merdeka.Ill keep you guys updated on it aight~ =)

Till my next post..

Why OUR batch?!?! WHY?!

Okay imagine this...

Form 6 all this while has been unchanged in terms of weekly schedule for the past God-knows-when years.Then ALL-OF-A-SUDDEN,when YOU my dear friend,sends your poor sorry butt to Form 6,expecting what the previous batch expected,the Ministry of ''Education'' drops a bombshell on you with efforts to ''re-vamp'' Form 6,which consequently changes the DAILY schedule to start from 7:30 am till 3:30 pm...every friggin day till Thursday.(Originally school ends at 1:10,which is totally cool with me,but now..) Do you have ANY idea how painful that is!?

Now i cant even afford to take my lovely afternoon nap or atleast laze around abit.Ugh...
Cant say much,although,i might be forced to shift school back to Puchong if things are too unmanageable,thats how inconvenient the situation is. =/ Dang~

On another note...

Well,honestly speaking,there's nothing much i can talk about,all thats making up the most of my time is just shcool school school (And im proud to STILL be called a schoolboy!) so unless you guys wanna hear a long long rant about how horrid Maths T is or about what i learned in BIO/Chem lessons,i cant blabber much. XD Owh wait...

I just remembered,i looked through my diary again and i saw my new years resolution,which i wrote way back in the final days of 2008.From the looks of things,its kinda great im fulfilling quite a few of them (Dont count ''working out'',im still working on it).

a)Keep in touch with friends (Doing very well)
b)Be more thoughtful/open (Seeing results)
c)Gain weight (PFFFFFTTT)
d)Study hard for STPM (Maybe?)
e)Find my spirituality (Yeah its improving alot now,after a couple of years)

In a world stuffed with so much self-absorbance and passivity plus the selfish desires/ignorance of man,its important to remain humble and simple with yourself.I try never to get caught up with things that arent what i want to be.Staying true and faithful can mean a whole world of difference in ones life,i know that cus it does to me =) I guess it took me awhile to ''find my spirituality'' but once i did,i truly feel that things are way way better.(Im Christian) Its good to just keep things simple (Quote the drummer's rule of thumb:KISS *Keep.It.Simple.Stupid*) Yes i play drums too.Be holier =)

Owh ok,so what have i been doing week-long?
You guessed it kids,STUDY and HOMEWORK! Ugh..

Owh and btw,to my friends/buddy,the remnants of my life in a week lie on the weekends and Fridays,so if you're planning anything (TRANSFORMERS 2!!) plan it then okay! XD

On the 27th-28th of June (JUNE already?!?!) im attending Lock-In at FBC!Have no idea whats gonna come-up but im sure ill have fun.

Then after that on July 4th,there's HARI KELUARGA in my old school,SMKSU plus ANOTHER EVENT in the form of CF RALLY on the 11th of July..... All these events and almost NO time for any of them =/ Sigh...

I SO WANT AN ITOUCH!! Sorry Aaron,i take back what i said,the Itouch is indeed a funner gadget than the PSP.hah

Haiz,its great that the ONLY commitment i have right now is Form 6...i feel so free,yet so burdened =P

Tagged by Chooi Si (Part II)

Well,you cant blame the gal,she's apparently over-basking in her freedom and spending a whole bunch of her time enjoying herself with lotsa stuff.So here i am tagged again by her (And hopefully a CERTAIN SOMEONE from my class would not drag me into the tagging business again XD) haha,but of course im joking =P So here goes ChokiChoki..

1. The most hilarious moment I can remember is :Me and Benjamin Lee laughing at a sick joke we made-up way back in Form 2

2. Most embarassing moment involving me:Playing the guitar,then farting adn everyone hearing

3. My age during my first kiss was:Less than 4 hours old,by my mum =)

4. The qualities I look for in my working partner are:TOTAL transparency and punctuality

5. Qualities in my love partner:Unconditional love,the kind our parents/God shows to us,genuine care

6. The most complicated english vocabulary i know is:Magnanimous,actually i have more,lazy to think

7. The weird things I do during my free time are:Intentionally sing horribly to annoy/please myself/others

8. If you live with me, you'd have to prepare yourself for..:Dont worry,im only ever annoying if im sometimes inconsiderate or too stuck-up..or too stressed out XD

9. My ultimate dream in life which is yet to be accomplished:Honestly,id love to inspire people,the world needs to smile more

10.I'm crazy about:Wouldnt you like to know? *winks*

11.What I cannot tolerate in a friend:Nothing,i believe a true friend has surpassed the ''tolerance'' part =)There's is one thing though,the inability to open-up

12.One fact majority of my friends don't know about me is:How deep i can delve in a convo? Honestly,i cant answer that for myself.

13.The most outrageous thing I'd be willing to do for rm 10 000:Anything,but gotta make sure it doesnt scathe my dignity and that its not unhealthy =P

14.If all jobs pay the same salary, my dream job is:Inspirational speaker/Writer/Musician/Dentist

15.If I were on my death bed,my last words to all my treasured friends are:You are the reason i look forward to tomorrow,you make up the pieces of my life,take care,so long...farewell...GOODBYE,i see the LIGHT,*Gasp!!* Its growing closer! ~ *Drops dead with tongue sticking out*

There ya go Chooi Si =)
Okay,PAVITRA!! Yes you! I tag you my dear classmate!XD

Settling back into school.

You know,the SUCKIEST thing about the mid-year hols is that,once you just sit back and relax,your ass gets soo heavy and sooo lazy that you barely wanna do anything....let alone go back to school....and FORM 6 O.O

So when it restarted,i was neck deep in RELAX-mode when im plunged all of a sudden back into the fray of Form 6nessness.

Fortunately,Monday involved alot of teachers meetings,so we were atleast spared the slaughter of homework,allowing us time to readjust our minds for the coming weeks.

Aneera left for the Philippines,meaning i was left to care for the class (awww).Knowing very clearly that i make a HORRIBLE leader,i set off with an open-mind,doing my best but knowing i might make mistakes.WISH ME LUCK guys~

So anyway,my class is REALLY great.In fact,i feel like ive already settled down with the guys in it already.The beauty about this class (From my point of view) is that the cliques arent SUPER-exclusive till the point that youre completely alienated.Maybe its the fact that everyone came from different schools and most of their friends went separate ways,so i guess everyone was open to the idea of mixing around more.This i like =)

Everyone is open,no one's reclusive and totally opposite of what i perceived before i started Form 6.
Some of the girls in my class are really cool to be around with,just crapping n joking.The guys are all cool with each other and they just hang-out and chill when ever no teachers in class (heh),there's like no stiffness in the class.So yeah,im starting to get used to the faces,and im feeling more at home with my new friends.


Its gonna be a great 1 1/2 years in F6 SCIENCE 2 with the guys im with,im sure.=) Just hope i dont screw up my role as class monitor!

Speaking my mind. (Redited)

I think for this post,ill just be direct and blatant about the things in my life that are putting me off at the moment.Its good to share how you really feel.Ive been thinking about the past,the future and of course,the present.This journey of life that i tread,brings with it its own adversities and pains.Most of which i shall nag about in this post.So do read with enthusiasm or just bear with the nagging.

• All my life,ive lived in Puchong and i studied in Subang for the larger part of my life.So that means that all my friends (Well,most of which ive made anyway) live in Subang.

There are some things i wont be able to experience ever again due to my age.

Sometimes i see a group of Puchong teens going out together in one group,i envy them.Ill never know how its like knowing your friends are just down the street or are a few minutes walk from your house.Ill never be able to go meet up with them then go the nearby field just to play and have fun.I wont be able to call them up and have random CC sessions as well.Sigh~

But thats the beauty of life isnt it? We live with some things,and others dont.But it wouldve been great if i had it that way.Then again,you wont be able to treasure the friends you made who live far away from you.

• Can any friendship truly be platonic? From the looks of things i really dont think so,those ominous words that my father warned me about are starting to come true.I have to admit,the toughest part of any guy-girl friendships is contemplating the possibility of the whole thing escalating,unless of course,a line is drawn somewhere.It doesnt have to be me,it can be anyone whose friend is the opposite sex.

I dont mean to come off on the wrong line,but maybe its for the best that some people stay passive for a good reason:They rather not get hurt than focus on creating a tight bond that might be deemed fragile.Its even worse if its a guy-girl friendship.Is it wrong to feel jealous? Does it matter what the other person does,although it doesnt hurt you? And how close can a friendship like this actually get?

But like EVERYTHING else on this wonderful colourful world of ours,theres always the pros/cons.I think close guy friendships are rare and if they do come up,atleast the closest they can both get is at the stage of brotherhood,but how bout guy-girl friendships? Is there such a thing as REALLY close guy-girl friends? Im PRETTY sure theres bound to be some spark here n dere.Its in our BIOLOGICAL NATURE to have this feeling within us,male or female.

From what ive seen,i guess despite a guys best efforts,sometimes its just not enough.Yes,your a nice guy,yes,you treat her differently from others,yes youget her gifts.The signs are obvious.But what is it about guys,that makes it easier for girls to warm up to some guys and much harder to others? The looks? The attitude? The charm?

I realize after awhile,that removing that ''mask'' from yourself is actually harder than it looks.As much as i dont want to say it,sometimes some people are better off staying passive.That way,they can just focus their real selves with people they love/care.The hardest part for guys is that,sometimes even if things could work out,it just wont.

Most of us have probably heard things like ''taking it slow'' or ''no rush'' or ''one step at a time''.Well for girls,that is can be really true...but for guys....I think they could live to regret doing that.Sometimes fate deals you a cruel blow and something youve been working on for so long can just shatter in an instant when someone else comes into to the picture.This reminds me,a friend of mine warned me that guy-girl friendships are better off passive.Maybe he's right...Then again,how many guy-guy friendships go deep? It all depends on the individual.

(On second thought,screw this point,after a chance encounter with a particular book,it changed my perception of how i should *Or how all men should* interact with the opposite sex.Face it guys,it should always be OUR fault,seriously)

• Sometimes (If not,most of the time) i wonder if im being too thoughtful,because it seems like it isnt worth it.Maybe being too friendly and kind will lead you to being taken for granted,cus if your ''always there'' then sometimes people can just USE you and not think about how you feel.It feels terrible..

Its even more worse if,for all this while,you remained thoughtful,always putting the interests of those you care for infront of your own,but he/she never realizes it and instead finds thoughtfulness in someone he/she just met.Is this what happens when friends stick with each other for so long?That they tend to forget that their friends has always been there for them?I would like the idea that he/she just forgot,but sometimes,i guess they dont even realize it.

Being too trusting of someone,even your closest friends,can bring you disappointment,as i have found out.But isnt that what friendships all about? Dealing with whats bad and enjoying whats good? Then again,i wouldnt want to hope for things that might not turn out,cus maybe it wont ever.

This is why people wear ''masks'',their afraid that their pre-conceived idea of someone might not turn out and it would just lead to disappointment.They dont want to get hurt.

But you know.. REAL friends are prepared to get hurt,even if the wound may be deep sometimes,this is what true friendship is all about,its about knowing when hard times will fall and WILLINGLY going through it,even if the ones you trust werent there to help you on your feet when you stumble.Who ever said its all clear seas and no storms? Sometimes you have to pick yourself up,cus even your closest friends might not help you.Its life..

Ive realized this,so sometimes,even if your friends arent what they seem or if you feel that they dont appreciate you enough,its okay,atleast you know deep down,you were being true to yourself and to them.I think people who EMBRACE the fact that they WILL get hurt,one way or another,but yet still go thru with it...those are the kind of people this world needs...people who prepare for adversity and take it head-on,in friendship and in love and in the family and all other walks of life.

Stay true to yourself and be all that you can be to those you care for.Its worth it,even if your hurt sometimes. =)