Taking up my cross

I get the message now and the truth is real.

This life i live,i dont ever want it to be a selfish one,there are too many people like that living in the world right now,living for themselves and rarely for others.

Im tired of seeing drifters,tired of seeing people chase for self-glory,tired of seeing people suffering,tired of all the hypocrisy and the lies and the contradictions and those little bickerings that happen in other peoples lives.No,i dont want to be sucked into that.

I have to work hard,God help me because its not gonna be easy.

Studying hard,getting a decent job with decent pay and then probably climbing up the career ladder,earning more money,buying bigger better things,finding love through emotions,marrying and settling down,having kids and raising the family only to work even harder to save up for childrens education,growing old and then dying is NOT the way i want to see my life unfold.Thats what most people strive for nowadays,or perhaps they just let life drift by without a care in the world.

HERE I AM,SEND ME..

Its been in my mind for many years now,but by faith,its been made clear to me now:

I want to live my live...helping others and doing something meaningful for our broken world.It would make me happy to see myself everyday going out to help those in need,bringing hope into their lives,putting a smile on their faces,working to a better more considerate people,building true and sincere relationships with the people in my life,and enjoying every cherished moment i could spent with them and showing them what it would really mean to love others the way my God has loved me.

Whenever i see pastors,missionaries,people who work in the SPCA,child welfare,Unicef,wildlife conservationists....basically people who work their bodies to exhaustion day in and day out just bringing support and hope to the suffering...i want to be a part of it,to do what they do.The world needs more of these people,we have enough who only care about themselves and only the things important to them.

Its kinda naive,maybe a little childish,i dunno but i know in my heart that someway somehow,this is what i wanna be doing in my life.I dont know where to start and i have doubt that i may never reach this goal.But i know very clearly now,this is what i want my life to be like:Living the unselfish life

One step at a time la i guess..haha